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NEOMARXIST · 03-15-2010, 05:32 PM

You sound like an alcoholic.

I am an alcoholic. A 'recovering' alcoholic with 8+ months sober now. Everything you describe happened to me. I got sober at 23. I am 24 now and born and raised in good ol' England. I know the binge-drinking culture well and was an avid fan for a good few years.

If you're an alclholic then the good times are long since gone. You will never be able to regain any control over your drinking and eventually you will find that a drink upon waking works wonders for your anxiety and 'booze blues'. A tramp doesn't usually start off that way you know. It takes many hard years of 'denial' for him to end up drinking tenants super on a street corner covered in his own p*ss and crap. That is end stage alcoholism. You will get there in the end eventually if you're an alcoholic and continue to drink. Maybe the prisons/mental institutions or grim reaper will get you first mindyou... More probable.

Don't wish to sound dramatic but most non alcoholics wont post on a recovery website worrying that they might be an alcoholic. Denial takes most alcoholics to the grave.

Everything you are experincing is all part of the natural cycle of alcoholism. A cycle in which more alcohol is the only solution. You may not think it now but if you're an alcoholic then you will do.

I can relate to your story 100%. By the way I was only a binge-drinker too. I was not a 24/7 street drinker but eventually I would be if I had continued to drink... but more probably them 'booze blues' would have killed me off way before then. Depression and alcoholism are very closely related. It's a very vicous cycle that you want to get out of whilst you still can.

getting sober for me meant fundamentally accepting that I'm an alcoholic and that I cannot drink alcohol. period. I manage this by not drinking 'just for today'. I have to dedicate my life around my recovery and making sure that I give my sobriety maximum priority. I am still very much a newcomer at 8 months.

I know where you're at and I don't want to go back there again. I chose to get off that merry-go-round. You can too if you want it badly enough.

All the Best

03-15-2010, 05:32 PM	#5 (permalink)
NEOMARXIST Member Join Date: May 2009 Posts: 1,996	You sound like an alcoholic. I am an alcoholic. A 'recovering' alcoholic with 8+ months sober now. Everything you describe happened to me. I got sober at 23. I am 24 now and born and raised in good ol' England. I know the binge-drinking culture well and was an avid fan for a good few years. If you're an alclholic then the good times are long since gone. You will never be able to regain any control over your drinking and eventually you will find that a drink upon waking works wonders for your anxiety and 'booze blues'. A tramp doesn't usually start off that way you know. It takes many hard years of 'denial' for him to end up drinking tenants super on a street corner covered in his own p*ss and crap. That is end stage alcoholism. You will get there in the end eventually if you're an alcoholic and continue to drink. Maybe the prisons/mental institutions or grim reaper will get you first mindyou... More probable. Don't wish to sound dramatic but most non alcoholics wont post on a recovery website worrying that they might be an alcoholic. Denial takes most alcoholics to the grave. Everything you are experincing is all part of the natural cycle of alcoholism. A cycle in which more alcohol is the only solution. You may not think it now but if you're an alcoholic then you will do. I can relate to your story 100%. By the way I was only a binge-drinker too. I was not a 24/7 street drinker but eventually I would be if I had continued to drink... but more probably them 'booze blues' would have killed me off way before then. Depression and alcoholism are very closely related. It's a very vicous cycle that you want to get out of whilst you still can. getting sober for me meant fundamentally accepting that I'm an alcoholic and that I cannot drink alcohol. period. I manage this by not drinking 'just for today'. I have to dedicate my life around my recovery and making sure that I give my sobriety maximum priority. I am still very much a newcomer at 8 months. I know where you're at and I don't want to go back there again. I chose to get off that merry-go-round. You can too if you want it badly enough. All the Best