| Im not really sure what to do anymore, I dont feel it to be alcoholism by any definition, but its not good and i worry about the damage im doing to my brain as well as my body, every time i try to stop i usually cave eventually all I do know is im sick and tired and cant go on this way anymore.
Why don't you feel what you've been experiencing is alcoholism? If you drink when you don't really want to, drink to blackout regularly, or you drink even though you feel like crap, or you have a hard time avoiding drinking, why would that not be alcoholism?
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