[jamdls]

Thanks all for the advice, I am wondering if I'm ready to date. My issues with men started before I started drinking (I was molested for years as a child by a family member) and I drank initially to escape all that. I've made peace w/the person(s) who harmed me and with myself for the most part. I still have issues w/men which is why I have isolated myself, not so much for the alcohol problem (my therapist agrees). I had a dream last night that I went out with this new man, drank (I guess)-had sex-then learned he was involved w/someone else and the dream ended with me alone in an airport with a cigarette and a drink. I don't want to be that person alone in a bar drinking. I can handle being alone w/myself sober, I didn't like the drunk me. So I guess I will stick w/my plan to just see where if anywhere this new friendship leads and if it seems like it's leaning to more than just a casual acquaintance I will tell him I can't drink (I've already told him I don't drink) and why, and if I ever get close to being intimate I will tell him my other "problem"... and if that scares him off then so be it.