I know for a fact that I can't drink socially like non-alcoholics. It would start with one drink, then I'd drink every drop of vodka within reach and beyond till I fell over...again.
I used to love drinking in groups because I could be a social butterfly (for lack of a more masculine term
). Yeah, people would love me, I'd be the life of the party, women loved me (or I'd convince myself they did). The thing is, though, beyond my exhuberant facade, I'd still be the miserable, sad, and lost person that drove me to drink in the first place.
With me, I recognize that drinking made me someone I am not. I am a good person, I am shy, and I have a hard time relating to some people. I was born that way and I am meant to be that way, though I am finding I am starting to come out of my shell every day of sobriety and working my steps.
I wish you the best in your decision. Take care~GeeQ