We are all you. We haven't all been physically abused - like you have. But we are all living with the remnants of the dreams we had when we met. We have all been disappointed and cast aside for alcohol or other issues. We understand. None of us thought it was "good" or "right" to divorce. Many of us felt sorry for him (or her). Until the point came where we saw that the person who needed compassion was us and our children - not the alcoholic.
Please stick around and keep reading. We all understand you. Hugs.