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So I grab my cell to set my alarm and snap some photos of him passed out in his chair. I tell him to lay down and sleep it off since I fear the safety of others if he got out in that condition.
After stumbling outside to smoke, in which he dumps his drink all over the porch he finally lays down, falls immediatly asleep and proceeds to snore 4 times a minute & wheeze because he prob has chips in his lungs. Hmmm, cell phone can make sound recordings too.
This am he's up at 0600, I'm up soon after to get the kiddos off to school. I can see he's still under the influence but at least he was slightly coherent. I tell him he he is using and he is lying so he has to leave. I tell him he can't stay in the shop, he has to leave the property altogether and I will be shutting off his cell service. I tell him he needs help and until he gets it he has no place here. I took his meds and hid them. He tells me I am crazy, quack quack quack.......
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Boy do I remember these kind of days with AH. Falling asleep everywhere he went, including church (embarrassing)....the snoring being so bad I thought he was gonna die of respiratory failure. If AH wasn't relapsing on crack, he's mixing vicodin, xanax, muscle relaxers, you name it.....and all legally prescribed to an addict (and his doctors knowing he is!!)
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I made a mistake letting him come back and my consequence was having to go through this yet again. But if you do something long enough you get better at it. And I have to beleive I am getting better.
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Thats right!! Your AH is gonna try every way he can to get back in.
Practice does make perfect even in that senario, the more you say "no" to him, the easier it gets. The more you avoid him, the easier it gets. It truly is like putting down a drug of your own, so be aware of withdrawls for yourself. It is a family disease, but have hope you can recover.
The pain at times will bubble up from the deep. We are here for you. Huggs.
NH7