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Old 12-11-2009, 09:21 AM
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burstpeach
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Alcohol helped me maintain a social life as a teen when my friends all wanted to go out clubbing and I was crippled with anxiety. I knew my anxiety wouldn't make me a recluse because booze would take that anxiety away and I could be the outgoing extravert I always was.

Alcohol numbed the pain of a controlling sexually abusive partner twice my age. I saw no way out but at least alcohol made it less unbearable.

Alcohol gave me a break from the pain of my chronic physical illness.

Alcohol basically gave me a break from all the pain during my teens.

But now, in my mind-twenties, having sought professional help from therapists and met an amazing man, I have realised that alcohol, for all those years, enabled me to run away from my pain. It 's time to stop running away.

I've worked hard to deal with my past and now all that is left to conquer is that one last cause of pain and I can finally be the person I have been deep down.

I look foward to a new year where I get me back.
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