I got nothing to add really Tib.
Once I stopped blaming everyone else for the fact I was still drinking, I got better.
Like Barb said, I spent so much time and effort into 'kinda but not really' recovering...'noone else appreciated my efforts', 'noone knew my struggles' 'noone gave the support I needed'.... BS.
Once I put all that effort into really working to make a different life, things turned around.
Hope you give yourself the chance mate
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