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benson · 12-01-2009, 07:12 PM

Hi everyone,

Just joined and I am hoping to feel less alone by just sharing my thoughts. I am 31 years old, and 4 or 5yrs ago was given ambien for a life long insomnia problem. It worked better than anything I ever tried and didn't leave me drowsy the next day. This past summer I realized I was taking it far too often, and on really bad days, even during the day, just to escape mentally. When I told my doctor she made sure to cancel all my current ambien prescriptions at the pharmacy, but she actually forgot one. I didn't realize it at first, but when I did, I filled it and didnt tell her. That went on from July until about 3 weeks ago, and I never told her. I couldnt stand it, so I actually stopped seeing her. I didn't like lying to her, but was too afraid to admit the truth.
I crave ambien more than I ever imagined. She gave me trazadone as a substitute, but it doesn't work too well. I actually have dreams where I find a secret stash of ambien. I bought some online out of desperation, but I just feel very wrong about it all. I know I am mentally dependent on this drug.
I just wanted to share in the hopes that getting this off my chest will bring some relief. I hardly hear about people being addicted to this drug, and sometimes I feel very alone.
Would welcome any feedback.

12-01-2009, 07:12 PM	#1 (permalink)
benson Member Join Date: Dec 2009 Posts: 2 Blog Entries: 1	new here/ambien addiction Hi everyone, Just joined and I am hoping to feel less alone by just sharing my thoughts. I am 31 years old, and 4 or 5yrs ago was given ambien for a life long insomnia problem. It worked better than anything I ever tried and didn't leave me drowsy the next day. This past summer I realized I was taking it far too often, and on really bad days, even during the day, just to escape mentally. When I told my doctor she made sure to cancel all my current ambien prescriptions at the pharmacy, but she actually forgot one. I didn't realize it at first, but when I did, I filled it and didnt tell her. That went on from July until about 3 weeks ago, and I never told her. I couldnt stand it, so I actually stopped seeing her. I didn't like lying to her, but was too afraid to admit the truth. I crave ambien more than I ever imagined. She gave me trazadone as a substitute, but it doesn't work too well. I actually have dreams where I find a secret stash of ambien. I bought some online out of desperation, but I just feel very wrong about it all. I know I am mentally dependent on this drug. I just wanted to share in the hopes that getting this off my chest will bring some relief. I hardly hear about people being addicted to this drug, and sometimes I feel very alone. Would welcome any feedback.