[iamhereforyou]

We've been dating 8 months ago, every month we have an issue, he gets depressed (he said that his life is miserable and that he is nothing) and very irritable frequently (mood swings, once a month or twice), he drinks a lot, but then suddenly he always came with a excuse of why he was like that and that he's miserable and i always tell him that i love him and that everyone has its ups and downs, and there where days that i didnt know NOTHING about him and randomly he call me or txt with some excuse and we are fine

When he drinks he's always complaining with chest pain, nosebleed, shortness of breath (specially when we talk during the night) and hemoptysis (he coughs saliva and blood) he coughs a lot! and irregular heartbeats he says that his heart beats are lower than normal and the doctor gave him medication for that (so his heart run faster)

I did research about it but it doesn't match with alcohol (correct me please if im wrong!! ill really appreciate it)

But.. last week i told him that i smoking cigarette frequently, im in college and im very stressed lately, but he suddenly stopped talking and told me that he told his friends that he would stop drinking and smoking pot if i become his GF (we've been together officially for 2 weeks) He said that sacrifice that he's doing is for nothing, and that he doesn't know if he became my boyfriend because he really loves me or to get rid of alcohol.

The next day he told me that he will start a new life, and that maybe i'll see... He called me at night and told me that he started doing coke, and he needed more and more, i told him to stop that and he said: DId i ever asked you to stop cigarettes? I freezed, and i told him that THAT was dangerous, the next day when we talked at night he was desperate that he needed another line
that he's getting addict. I stat crying and i told him "Baby im with you please, please stop it", and he start sobbing "you dont like what he was doing, and i told him "babe, i dont like it but i do love you," he start sobing that he needed another line, and that he will hang up, and he did...

He didnt called me or txt me during thanksgiving, till the night, i told him that i called he said "i know" and that i txt him like crazy he said "i know", i asked him how he were and he told me he used it at his friends home after work..i asked him why he didnt answered and didnt answered...our call dropped i called back a couple of time and he didnt pick it up, and he txt ..for this you wanted me to call you?? good , and i told him, the call dropped please pick up the phone, and he answered , sure it dropped..


He is not answering my txt or calls, just like when we were friends and dissapeared...I think that he didnt started cocaine two days ago like he says, i think that he does it since a lot of time and thats because his chest and coughs and bleeding and he just told me in that way..i think is not the alcohol

He doesn't have financial problems because he owns a business, last week he didnt picked me up for our date he called me that he has nosebleed (because of the alcohol)


Please I need help. I just couldn't stop crying while writing this, i love him so so so much



- Are that symptoms of coke abuse (years of abuse)??


Please help, if you had experience something similar and how you went thru this please share

THANK YOU