[MrsMagoo]

It's good to be back! Coffeedrinker - you did help me. That's why I got back on and started a thread.....I need to hear that I"m not out of my mind and that there are others that have lived through this. The hard part wasn't asking him to leave...I have lots of practice at that. The hard part is meaning it and sticking to it!

I do know that this time, he will have to have significant clean time, a job and be able to support himself before I would consider allowing him back into my life. Ideally, I would like to "date" too and get to know him. He's not the same person. Too much has happened. I'm not the same person for sure. I consider myself too damaged for anybody but him as I sit here today.

I'm glad ya'll are here on a Saturday night to talk to me and encourage me to stay on course. I do know the odds are stacked against ever making this work (between the two of us). Without alot more recovery on my part too, I know that I can never take him back and always be lying in wait for the other shoe to drop.