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honoryourself · 11-21-2009, 06:42 PM

Good luck Hanah, I am sort of where you are. I have been slowly moving towards making things final. I need money and support and I don't want to have to move out of my house but I doubt my AH will leave if we separate, and that's a requirement.

I find it VERY depressing to have the holidays around the corner, and divorce on the horizon. I never expected to be alone again over christmas, but thank God for family and friends.

I was driving to the store today and I noticed all these couples out doing their errands and christmas shopping and thanksgiving prep together, and I got this warm feeling of togetherness, mutual support, respect and love. Then I thought about doing these things with my H and all I felt was emptiness, irritation, disappointement, bargaining, drinking, and sadness... It kind of helped push me in the right direction, like.. you'll probably never have that with your AH, time to move on if you want more from life. And I do! I want Joy!

So keep that in mind as you move forwards, and best of luck.

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honoryourself Member Join Date: Oct 2009 Location: east siiiide Posts: 254	Good luck Hanah, I am sort of where you are. I have been slowly moving towards making things final. I need money and support and I don't want to have to move out of my house but I doubt my AH will leave if we separate, and that's a requirement. I find it VERY depressing to have the holidays around the corner, and divorce on the horizon. I never expected to be alone again over christmas, but thank God for family and friends. I was driving to the store today and I noticed all these couples out doing their errands and christmas shopping and thanksgiving prep together, and I got this warm feeling of togetherness, mutual support, respect and love. Then I thought about doing these things with my H and all I felt was emptiness, irritation, disappointement, bargaining, drinking, and sadness... It kind of helped push me in the right direction, like.. you'll probably never have that with your AH, time to move on if you want more from life. And I do! I want Joy! So keep that in mind as you move forwards, and best of luck.