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CrackQuack · 11-20-2009, 12:25 PM

I posted this in the women's forum cuz I know there are lots of us here who are mothers. When I was in active addiction, I sent my eldest kid to live with his dad (he honestly, would have been better with his crackhead mother, cuz his dad's gf and his dad were both strung out on sh** too- and my son actually broke his dad's jaw when they got in a fight). And I let my second ex dictate how my time with our son went, because I thought I knew it was better for my kids and honestly, Mommy was choosing crack over her babies anyway.
So long story short. Almost 10 months clean. Court order says we SHARE parenting. I don't really want to drag my 13 year old son through court, but at the same time I do. I am not getting the time I want. Every weekend, it's the same **** ****. "we've got plans". You name it. Anything this **** can make up, he does. I try on Mondays, to ask about the coming weekend. Too early to tell. Tuesdays. Too early to tell. Wednesdays. Let me get back with you. Thursdays and Fridays is "we've already made plans."
I am just ****tired of this bulls**** and I am going to cuss and rant and rave because there is nothing I can do about it except that and cry.
I am clean now. My SON WANTS TO BE WITH ME. He's said so. He said he wanted to spend THIS ****WEEKEND WITH ME because I am going to Florida with my boyfriend next week and weekend. I am sick of this. I am just ****sick of this. Tired of the bull****t lies. This weekend it's "He's going to Columbus with me to fix Aunt So and So's ****computer". Like a man with FOUR ****COMPUTER DEGREES NEEDS HIS SON TO FIX THE COMPUTER. Do I look like I was born yesterday.. ****this ****
OMG I am so mad right now I want to scream. All I can do is sit here and cry. It's completely ruined my weekend. And I just wish I could do something about it.
This same dad was iffy before I started smoking crack. I had to fight to get school schedules, grades.. Always had to be right on top of him like stink on ****. Class functions. He'd try to not tell me about parent/teacher conferences.
Ladies, if you're redneck/hillbilly/"low class" like me, never EVER EVER EVER marry a rich, spoiled, snobby, ****, single child who will NEVER be a man. Who gloats and does the "I told you so dance" when you do mess up like he's perfect and never done anything wrong. The freak. THE FREAK!!!!!!!!!
Neither one of my baby daddies were worth two cents. What was I thinking??
Sorry.. I am just so upset. I have no idea what to do, and I was already online when I talked to my youngest's dad.. So I came here. Sorry if I offended anyone or anything..

11-20-2009, 12:25 PM	#1 (permalink)
CrackQuack Member Join Date: Mar 2009 Location: Dayton, OH. Posts: 879 Blog Entries: 7	I really AM ANGRY! I posted this in the women's forum cuz I know there are lots of us here who are mothers. When I was in active addiction, I sent my eldest kid to live with his dad (he honestly, would have been better with his crackhead mother, cuz his dad's gf and his dad were both strung out on sh too- and my son actually broke his dad's jaw when they got in a fight). And I let my second ex dictate how my time with our son went, because I thought I knew it was better for my kids and honestly, Mommy was choosing crack over her babies anyway. So long story short. Almost 10 months clean. Court order says we SHARE parenting. I don't really want to drag my 13 year old son through court, but at the same time I do. I am not getting the time I want. Every weekend, it's the same . "we've got plans". You name it. Anything this can make up, he does. I try on Mondays, to ask about the coming weekend. Too early to tell. Tuesdays. Too early to tell. Wednesdays. Let me get back with you. Thursdays and Fridays is "we've already made plans." I am just tired of this bulls and I am going to cuss and rant and rave because there is nothing I can do about it except that and cry. I am clean now. My SON WANTS TO BE WITH ME. He's said so. He said he wanted to spend THIS WEEKEND WITH ME because I am going to Florida with my boyfriend next week and weekend. I am sick of this. I am just sick of this. Tired of the bullt lies. This weekend it's "He's going to Columbus with me to fix Aunt So and So's computer". Like a man with FOUR COMPUTER DEGREES NEEDS HIS SON TO FIX THE COMPUTER. Do I look like I was born yesterday.. this OMG I am so mad right now I want to scream. All I can do is sit here and cry. It's completely ruined my weekend. And I just wish I could do something about it. This same dad was iffy before I started smoking crack. I had to fight to get school schedules, grades.. Always had to be right on top of him like stink on . Class functions. He'd try to not tell me about parent/teacher conferences. Ladies, if you're redneck/hillbilly/"low class" like me, never EVER EVER EVER marry a rich, spoiled, snobby, **, single child who will NEVER be a man. Who gloats and does the "I told you so dance" when you do mess up like he's perfect and never done anything wrong. The freak. THE FREAK!!!!!!!!! Neither one of my baby daddies were worth two cents. What was I thinking?? Sorry.. I am just so upset. I have no idea what to do, and I was already online when I talked to my youngest's dad.. So I came here. Sorry if I offended anyone or anything.. __________________ "You can't quit until you try, you can't live until you die, you can't learn to tell the truth until you learn to lie." "Knowledge is knowing a tomato is a fruit. Wisdom is not putting a tomato in a fruit salad."