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Pinkolive, I agree with stagebear in that those symptoms you mention are in fact WD. What really sucks about your situation is the fact that in the back of your head the idea of another kidney stone, and taking painkillers, is just around the corner. It's like you are caught "between a stone and a hard place" (no pun intended). Have the docs told why you get so many stones? Is there something you can do to reduce them?
On the "bright side", you are not in denial and realize you have a problem. That is always the first step to recovery. I also congratulate your efforts to stay sober regardless of your medical problems! Some people use their disease as a means to justify their addiction but you seem to grasp what's going in your head. My experience is that the cravings gradually go away. However, most agree that addiction has no cure and all we can do is control the disease to the point where we can have a "normal" life.
This site will provide you with the support you need in order to make it through. Here you can rest assured that a hand will always be extended to those in need. Also think about going to NA meetings. I wish the very best in your recovery and pray that you find a cure to your medical problems.
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