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I failed miserably, I couldn't even make it 24 hours without the aches pains cravings kicking in, so I used, then I used again...then i started drinking and fell into a massive depressive state...hospital monday night, feeling completely down in the dumps...today full of energy but still craving i've not used since monday night but the urge is there because of the energy and hyperness i feel. i can't keep still for long, the thoughts are racing through my head. I know that if I use it will calm me down, allow me to rest for a bit but if i use then i know that i have to face another day tryin to stop the aches the pains, the feeling sick (i don't know if that's normal), the cravings, the thoughts of using... its difficult..its more difficult then I thought it would be. my drug worker is away until next week, someone is calling tomorrow to see how I am though..but its today that i need to speak to someone..this feeling is to hyper for me and I don't like it..my heads too fast, my body can't cope with it I need to slow my head so that I can rest.
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