| Hitting Bottom
So there comes a time in every alcoholic's life when they hit bottom. And there are two ways to handle it. Either you can decide that it is not worth it, and stay at the bottom, or you can realize that what God has given you is a gift. He has given you the opportunity to realize that you have a problem and you need help. And, if you look around you, there are people waiting to help. All you have to do is ask. That point came for me on Saturday morning at 6:30 AM. I got a DUI. My first, and I am only 21 years old. I didn't kill anyone, or hurt anyone... and it was a wake-up call for everyone.
I am an athlete, go to college and get decent grades. Well, I did at least until about 2 years ago when my problems with alcohol really started. It has been a downward spiral ever since. Saturday morning was rock bottom for me. And I amlost chose the easy path... I almost didn't realize that I had a problem. I thought the cops were out to get me. I thought my parents were crazy. I thought the whole world was against me. But, what I finally came to realize that the only reason the world is against me is because I have pushed them away so hard that there was no way for them to even be able to get close to help me. After I got out of jail, I realized that I needed help. And went to find the first AA meeting that I could.
I know I have a long way to go. I actually have the shakes right now. But, in order for me to get my life back on track, a little pain is worth it. Because if I don't get it fixed now, the next step is... I don't even want to think about it. I need help. And if anyone out there can help me, or give me some words of advice to get me through this... I am finally asking for help. Please, please... tell me your story, or tell me that I can get through this. I have no idea how it got so out of control, but the fact of the matter is it did. And now it is finally time to right the wrongs I have been creating for myself. |