[transformyself]

Hi everybody.

I'm here for codependance, not addiction but my PTSD was at it's worst when living with my AH that I left early Sept.

I've had two melt downs in the past month and was totally freaked out by it until I realized I was living weeks at a time--weeks!--with high anxiety while still living with him. No wonder.

Anyway, I take klonopin when the escalation starts. I refuse to regularly take meds because first of all, how do you know if you're no longer anxious and secondly screw that. I've seen so many folks seriously jacked up from taking meds all the time, also from trying to wean off them. Ugly.

But is it uglier than the PTSD? I dunno.

Otherwise I have been practicing Bikram Yoga 3-4 times a week and that heals everything. Not just my anxiety but also my endometriosis, bad knees, vericose veins, screwed up shoulder, digestive issues, you name it.

Problem is, I can't get there that often sometimes. So this weekend I had a trigger and spent about 6 hours shaking, crying, and having a flashback. I do not want this in my life anymore.

Do any of you have only positive experiences with your anti anxiety meds? No withdrawl, no side effects?

Thanks!