[Horselover]

Thank you Barb, Taz, Jahnilee, Wolf, Selfseeking, Stoney, Believe, and everyone that's taken time to post on this.

I have to say that I didn't know her well. We were more acquaintances, but for some strange reasons hearing about this hit me deep. Maybe it was because I can't get past the fact that it could have been prevented. Maybe its because we are both Mothers and I know how lonely that job can be. Maybe its because her faith was so strong and I don't understand how it couldn't help her. Maybe because my husband has depression. I don't know what the string was that tied us at the end, but it was there.

She is being laid to rest today and it really is for family and close friends. I won't go, but I may go visit the grave at some point. We spoke a couple of times at the mom's group, but that was it. The mom's group is putting together something in order to take care of her husband's and the girls' immediate needs such as meals, errands, and childcare. I finish my work at the dairy in about 2 weeks and would like to step up to this task. I have to do something. I still ache for her family, but I know their church, the mom's group, and their neighborhood will help the family. We are having a prayer meeting at my son's school tomorrow morning for the family. Hopefully all this will help in some way.

One of the things I have taken from this experience is at least right now, I love deeper and I am living in the moment as much as possible. It really does teach you that life is fragile.