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I wish we all didn't feel like the way we do. But reading everyone else's posts makes me feel normal, like I'm not alone in the path of destruction created by Hurricane our alcoholic boyfriends, husbands, wives, etc.
"The alcoholic actually ends up in a better place then teh people they destroy..."
So true, whether they are still drinking or sober and in recovery. My boyfriend is 10 1/2 months sober now and his selfish tendencies are worse than ever. He gets to run off to meetings and, when he is acting like a jerk, has this imaginary "get out of jail free" card because he's an alcoholic. Sometimes I just feel like saying, "How about you man up and take responsibilty for the things you've done rather than just blame it on your drinking or your recovery?"
Everyone praises the alcoholic for doing the right thing and going into recovery, but what about the person at home who sat on edge every night or, in my case, was up rubbing his legs all night when he went cold turkey of the oxy's and should've been in detox because the DT's were so bad?? There is no reward, no praise, not even a feeling of accomplishment. We are stuck with all of the bad memories that they were too drunk to form. We have to forgive but it is impossible to forget.
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