[Horselover]

Had a friend commit suicide yesterday. She wasn't an alcoholic. She wasn't addicted to anything. She had depression and no one knew how bad it was. She leaves behind a baby of 4 months and a 4 year old daughter. Please pray for her dear family to find comfort during this time. I am beyond words over this and as I said to my dear friend, Joanie, here I would have easily picked up over this not long ago. Today I grieve, I have anger, and I pray. I will not pick up. It wouldn't help her. I am not saying this for a pat on the back, but to reassure you that you can reprogram your reactions to situations that life throws your way. You will not always drink over these things and in fact, the very thought of drinking right now repulses me. Here comes the anger.