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Jesse17 · 11-07-2009, 08:48 AM

Hello, I've been lurking here for a week or so. I need to stop drinking!

My wife and I are both drunks. We have been for years, but the last two years have been really bad. We keep quiting, and one or the other of us brings home a bottle withing two days. She's done a little better than me, but I haven't made it more than one night without drinking for SEVERAL months.

When we finish the booze and beer, the next morning I think of the money we spent that we didn't have, and have no problem with not drinking again. By the time I get off work, I argue with myself all the way to the liquor store. If I can make myself go home instead, it's only a matter of a couple of hours before I drive back into town to get booze. I feel like I'm a failure, and a piece of dirt. But, only until I get the first couple shots in me, then I'm happy with my life for another evening.

Then repeat the above the next day.

If I don't come home and drink, I usually just nap all afternoon, and am in a pissed off mood all night.

I HAVE to quit drinking, before I loose my house. The bills are already piling up, and I think I may be having liver issues also.

I mentioned AA to my wife. She's not for it. She said she made herself go to one and take some sort of test years ago to prove to herself she wasn't an alcoholic. But, that was years ago. We've been drunk nightly for almost a decade.

I see there's an Open meeting at 2 pm today. I'll be in the neighborhood around that time anyway. Maybe I'll stop in...maybe.

Question: What's the difference between an Open AA meeting and a Closed one?

11-07-2009, 08:48 AM	#1 (permalink)
Jesse17 Member Join Date: Oct 2009 Posts: 35	First Post/Step (I guess) Hello, I've been lurking here for a week or so. I need to stop drinking! My wife and I are both drunks. We have been for years, but the last two years have been really bad. We keep quiting, and one or the other of us brings home a bottle withing two days. She's done a little better than me, but I haven't made it more than one night without drinking for SEVERAL months. When we finish the booze and beer, the next morning I think of the money we spent that we didn't have, and have no problem with not drinking again. By the time I get off work, I argue with myself all the way to the liquor store. If I can make myself go home instead, it's only a matter of a couple of hours before I drive back into town to get booze. I feel like I'm a failure, and a piece of dirt. But, only until I get the first couple shots in me, then I'm happy with my life for another evening. Then repeat the above the next day. If I don't come home and drink, I usually just nap all afternoon, and am in a pissed off mood all night. I HAVE to quit drinking, before I loose my house. The bills are already piling up, and I think I may be having liver issues also. I mentioned AA to my wife. She's not for it. She said she made herself go to one and take some sort of test years ago to prove to herself she wasn't an alcoholic. But, that was years ago. We've been drunk nightly for almost a decade. I see there's an Open meeting at 2 pm today. I'll be in the neighborhood around that time anyway. Maybe I'll stop in...maybe. Question: What's the difference between an Open AA meeting and a Closed one?