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I've decided that from today I'm not going to use heroin, my addiction is getting out of control..i started just smoking it, but now I've moved onto injecting. I've only been injectin since Thursday and I really don't want to go down that road...I'm scared that I will fall back, that the tempatation will be too much, when i get the phone call asking if i want some gear,or when my friend turns up and has gear...the feeling it gives you when you use is like an experience i've never felt, its calming, numbing, all problems seem non-existant (clearly they not but when your there in that moment you believe you have no problems).
I know today re: withdrawals and cravins won't be that bad, but tomorrow is when I usually start cravin, start getting the withdrawals, usually about 36-48hrs after my last hit. I can go on the script but I want to try and get off smack on my "own" without replacing it with something else.
not sure what will happen but i have to try before i do OD on smack.
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