[lightseeker]

I, too, know how hard it is. It was so hard that I couldn't do it. I've lived a very difficult life though over the last 5 years because I wasn't strong enough to stay away. I'm the poster child of why you should wait until someone is at least one year into sobriety before resuming a relationship with them. I went through early sobriety with my husband and he has stayed clean now for 4 years. However, he has not worked a program to speak of and he has just been a sober drug addict (ie difficult person to be around).

I love what NCGIRL wrote earlier in the week - she's waiting for her body to catch up with her head. She's in a similar situation as you. Remember....feelings will pass as long as you let them. They don't have to be acted on. When you are ready to sever contact you will....you can block people on your phone and computer. As long as you leave avenues for contact to occur they most likely will. I'm definitely not telling you what to do because we are each ready to do whatever we are going to do when we are ready.

Maybe spend some time creating your bottom lines and get around some other people in Alanon or Naranon recovery. That has helped me more than anything else.

Thinking about you!