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for me freedom means......realeased from the mental torture of drinking or more importantly for not drinking.
The mental suffering for me without a drink and without a program......nearly finished me.
that freedom is beautiful......an enjoyable emptyness....of calmness and peace......it de-clutters my airwaves to a connection with god.
freedom for self......once realeased from the mental torture i had the ability to reflect on my life.......with gut level honesty
and see clearly that most things in my life where done for the benifit of me.
decisions where based on me first......everyone...and i mean everyone second.
realizing that maybe im not as important as i think i am.....turning away from me and looking for how i can be of use to others.
Sounds idealic........some days it is..........
somedays my ego tweaks and i forget myself.......all to easy to get self absorbed.....
the difference today is that self absorbtion gets way to uncomfortable ..
pretty quickly.
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