Wow! Congratulations on this realization. It's not easy to face up to the ickier parts of our own psyche. I had a lot of icky stuff to deal with such as this, but much better to shine the light on it than let it continue to grow and fester in the dark.
I think for me, it is helpful to look at these things as just one side of the coin. I've found that many things in life are paradoxical. So, on the one hand, I get a feeling of superiority over the alcoholic. But, what's the other side of the coin? For me, it was fear of failure, of not being good enough, smart enough, pretty enough, or whatever. So, I was using his faults to excuse what I perceived as my own faults.
As it turns out, my own faults were not nearly as awful as my perception of them was.
The truth is everyone has their faults. My fear of admitting them was much more painful than actually having them.
L