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My RAH's godson was found dead in his apt. He was addicted to alcohol and opiates. As he lived out of town, I only saw him a few times, and each time he was stoned out of his head, so I never knew him. My husband is taking this hard, saying he should have reached out more. RAH had told the godson several times about his own progression of addiction that included 2 prison terms of 2 years each. But of course, that wasn't going to happen to godson...he was different.
My husband's comments REALLY angered me. I asked him what magic words he would have used to get his godson to stop using, because I sure as heck never found them. He said he didn't know but he would have made sure his godson knew he was loved. I told my husband if love could stop someone from using drugs, my husband would have never set foot in a prison.
My husband's family is acting like their jerky selves; instead of realizing that time is short, and family is important, they're yelling at each other about funeral plans, who's not talking to who, who was there for godson and who wasn't....etc. And my husband is on edge, feels everyone, mainly me, is suspicious of him, certain he will now relapse. I told him I have learned that I can't do his recovery for him. I love him and am here for him, but it's up to him to keep his sobriety. He has been in touch with his sponsor. And I am talking to you!
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