holy f-bombs that sucked. still feel like throwing up. WHAT in heck is up with that?? My stomach is just in knots. It's felt like lead since Tuesday, but now my body is just screaming at me. Totally not the flu or anything. I even checked my temp HOPING it might be though I despise getting sick . . .
I kept telling myself all night that it was my body releasing all of this negative energy that I've been holding so close. I told myself that all of this bad energy probably needs to purge more than the alcohol I've packed my cells with over the years.
I can't even cry. I'm trying to make myself cry just to get this out, and I can't even squeeze one little tear out. And oddly enough, I'm trained to cry on cue. Not tonight, I guess. Not tonight.
Why? Why? Why? Did this urge have to come back???????
I've been feeling so amazing and confident. Went into the liquor store to buy cigs yesterday and just looking at the bottles made me want to vomit. What is up with this feeling in my stomach? And no, I'm not preggo, and if I am, wait for the apocalypse soon, because I'm the second immaculate conception.
Ugggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
All right. Whatever. I accept it. I feel it. Breathe in. Breathe out. Bad energy, I release you.