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If he's only doing it twice a year you're in the wrong place because that is not drug addiction, it's someone enjoying a casual round of escapism. Escapism is a normal part of human behaviour and just because he chooses to do it with what sounds like amphetamine instead of drinking or jumping out of airplane doesn't make him a bad person and is unlikely to be a reflection on you. If he does it more often when you two are having "problems" don't regard it as some inability to tolerate you on his part, it his inability or unwillingness to cope with the heartache fighting with you most likely causes him, hence the escapism.
This is all speculation, I don't know you at all, obviously, but maybe he's unwilling to tell you the truth because you've exhibited a demonstrably prejudiced or unreasonably negative attitude towards recreational drug use.
My advice would be to genuinely ask him that you just want to understand what he's doing and that the lying makes you uncomfortable. If he decides to tell you it would not be a good time to get sanctimonious or passive-aggressive. Do not begin the dialogue by firing from a moral high ground or you are going to cause resentment and make him feel as though you are treating him like a child and he's still going to do it anyway, in fact if it were me I would do it simply out of spite. I've found that if you really try to listen to someone and comprehend without a judgmental attitude it is much easier to objectively understand what is happening. If he still decides he doesn't want to tell you then that's the end of it, he's an adult and is entitled to privacy. I don't really think that it's worth ruining a marriage over because it's really not that big a deal but if you find it so reprehensible that you need to leave, then you can still do that. I'm not trying to be confrontational, I'm just trying to give you advice that may lead to constructive adult dialogue instead of conflict and screaming matches.
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