When you are mentally wanting to quit it’s easy, but when you are hell bent nothing anyone says can stop you, Its easy when there are no cravings and its easy when “I” want to do it but the reaper always visits and then I can not care less about anything including health or non dinking history…
I am not going to any meetings, even if I wanted to I cant, I wake with calls I go to sleep with printing (I actually do better at night drinking, I get things done)…
I love drinking; well the first few… but the next few are good too but more sedative, half a beer left… just dizzy but in control, good night.
Repeat, repeat, repeat…
WantToLive you have to want to live, please try harder than I have tonight!!
