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fluffypiranha · 11-04-2009, 05:11 PM

I know I can pray for him and I have in the past. There's just not a lot left of me. We've been arguing all day.
We have a friend who has no where to stay so we invited her to stay for 2 weeks (it's the longest our landlord will allow) but I asked my husband to let her know that we couldn't take her dog. Visitors are not allowed to bring pets or we could get evicted. He said that he would let her know. He lied. She showed up last night with the dog. I didn't say anything because I didn't get home from work until late. I confronted him this morning. His excuse was "I didn't mean to lie." I was angry because he constantly lies. He lied to me about the pills. In 7 days he has eaten 120 pills. I wish I was joking.
As for the Bible. I know it is God's instructions for us. But sometimes I wish it'd be more like "Hang on, he'll quit in 2 years." or "Go ahead and leave him, he's not going to change."
We argued before he left for work too. He left in silence. He asked if I was still mad at him. I told him that I was hurt. I'm just realizing that for 10 years the drugs have always come first and that will never change. I just want to curl up and sleep the rest of my life away. I"m trying not to cry because my 8 year is just a few feet away from me and I have to go to work soon.

11-04-2009, 05:11 PM	#7 (permalink)
fluffypiranha Member Join Date: Jun 2009 Posts: 8	I know I can pray for him and I have in the past. There's just not a lot left of me. We've been arguing all day. We have a friend who has no where to stay so we invited her to stay for 2 weeks (it's the longest our landlord will allow) but I asked my husband to let her know that we couldn't take her dog. Visitors are not allowed to bring pets or we could get evicted. He said that he would let her know. He lied. She showed up last night with the dog. I didn't say anything because I didn't get home from work until late. I confronted him this morning. His excuse was "I didn't mean to lie." I was angry because he constantly lies. He lied to me about the pills. In 7 days he has eaten 120 pills. I wish I was joking. As for the Bible. I know it is God's instructions for us. But sometimes I wish it'd be more like "Hang on, he'll quit in 2 years." or "Go ahead and leave him, he's not going to change." We argued before he left for work too. He left in silence. He asked if I was still mad at him. I told him that I was hurt. I'm just realizing that for 10 years the drugs have always come first and that will never change. I just want to curl up and sleep the rest of my life away. I"m trying not to cry because my 8 year is just a few feet away from me and I have to go to work soon.