OMG, where did this spring from?
As I was finishing my last post, I started to feel I'm okay - I'm really, truly okay, I've got there at long last. I have no reason to feel guilty or not good enough or "less than" other people any more.
I am a good person; I was / am a good daughter; I am a good sister; I am a good wife and I am an excellent mother. I have finally found it in me to validate myself and it feels true, not a front, not arrogance, just the quiet truth - inside.
I am a good person in my own right who is worthy and deserving of a parent's love, pride and admiration. I did not deserve my childhood or early adulthood, I did / do not deserve my parent's expectations or negative judgemental attitudes. It is my Mum's loss that she is cannot recognise the good person I am and what I have achieved so far in my life. I no longer need her love or validation (which I never had) to feel good about myself.
See me, I'm okay. Thak you SR
