Congratulations on going 8 days Jo. Glad you went and got the BB. We aren't all carbons of each other, BUT if you are white knuckling it by 5 pm every day I would say there is something deeper here. A "hard drinker" would most likely not have a huge problem giving up alcohol for a week now in my opinion, but only you can decide if you are an alcoholic or not. It took me many years to swallow that pill and I am glad that I finally have. I no longer have the struggle of whether I can or cannot control my drinking and that is a HUGE weight off me. Good luck and have a great day!