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Kjell · 11-03-2009, 12:04 PM

I was six week sober and thought I was on my way.

On Saturday night I decided I would drink at home and no one would know. The problem is I woke from a blackout with my airbag off. I was driving and hit another car.

I don't know what I was doing, where I was going, or what my thought process was. Total blackout for most of the evening.

I take full responsability, but I'm scared to death. This is my 2nd dui and 2nd car crash in about a year. I can't beleive I still have this in me. I honestly thought I was over the risk of drinking and driving.

I'm truly baffeled as to what happened - how I could do that again. How has it come to this?

I'm in serious trouble and not only frightened as to what's going to happen to me, but terrified of what I've become.

I will continue to go to AA and work the steps and using SR. It's certainly not AA's fault, it's mine. Looking back, I was acting funny, being dishonest about a few things DAYS BEFORE Sat, and I didn't tell on myself as soon as I started having "those" thoughts.

Anyone have any advice (besides the don't drink and drive)? I despertatly need help. I could have killed someone. I could have killed myself. I know I cannot drink again (knew this before Sat night). I don't want to be this person anymore.

Sorry if there are any mis-spellings.

Thanks,
Kjell

11-03-2009, 12:04 PM	#1 (permalink)
Kjell i've done my almost Join Date: Aug 2009 Location: Atlanta, GA Posts: 1,919 Blog Entries: 1	anotherDUIanotherCARWRECK I was six week sober and thought I was on my way. On Saturday night I decided I would drink at home and no one would know. The problem is I woke from a blackout with my airbag off. I was driving and hit another car. I don't know what I was doing, where I was going, or what my thought process was. Total blackout for most of the evening. I take full responsability, but I'm scared to death. This is my 2nd dui and 2nd car crash in about a year. I can't beleive I still have this in me. I honestly thought I was over the risk of drinking and driving. I'm truly baffeled as to what happened - how I could do that again. How has it come to this? I'm in serious trouble and not only frightened as to what's going to happen to me, but terrified of what I've become. I will continue to go to AA and work the steps and using SR. It's certainly not AA's fault, it's mine. Looking back, I was acting funny, being dishonest about a few things DAYS BEFORE Sat, and I didn't tell on myself as soon as I started having "those" thoughts. Anyone have any advice (besides the don't drink and drive)? I despertatly need help. I could have killed someone. I could have killed myself. I know I cannot drink again (knew this before Sat night). I don't want to be this person anymore. Sorry if there are any mis-spellings. Thanks, Kjell __________________ B/c alcohol did for me what I could not do for myself.