I'm finally clean from 1,000 tries. The benzo withdrawal was the worst. My liver is so bad that even when I eat healthy foods, my liver flares up.
About 8 years ago, already with a bad liver, I continued to drink and got so swollen that I had to hold it up with my 2 hands, couldn't walk, had pain whenever I would twist my hips or carry something heavy but continued to punish my liver by drinking.
At one time , it got better but didn't stop me, actually my addction grew stronger with benzodiaipines/crack and alcohol all mixed together for another 4 years.
Can you believe this, I went to the doctor and they didn't find anything.
As I'm wrtitng now, it's swollen, it's uncomfortable but I'm so use to it. I know for a fact my liver is somewhat scarred. Would that scar eventually heal from years and years of punishment? My poor liver.
It's time to honor my body.
