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tim4960 · 11-01-2009, 08:51 AM

Last night I went Trick or Treating with my two beautiful grandaughters, ages 1and 5, and even though it was raining a bit, we all had a great time.About half way threw the evening I was walking somewhat behind everybody just thinking how I really missed doing this with my 3 kids when they were little.The only difference between then and now is today I am clean and can truly enjoy these times. Don't get me wrong, we laughed and joked, but never without some kind of substance in my system.My oldest grand daughter noticed I was falling behind and walked back to me and said Hi grandpa, will you take me to the next house and took my hand. I am 49 yrs old and it takes a lot to even get me to think about crying, well I almost did. Call me a wimp,(lol) but once out of the mouth of babes, she almost got the tears.I looked down, smiled and said ABSOLUTLY... and off we went.I have to admit, it was one of the best nights i've had in a long time.As I woke up this morning,I opened the curtins and I stood there and just looked at how beautiful the world is.The leaves were all shades and there was a fall crispness in the air. You couldn't have asked for a more perfect November day, And as I closed my eyes I could almost smell the turkey roasting in the oven.It's still at times a little over whelming,I've been doing drugs since I was 10 years old and seemed to have woken up from a nightmare and placed into this utopia since I stopped useing. Please dont get me wrong, I dont live in a world with lollypop trees and bubblegum bushes, but since I stopped useing, opened my eyes and let my higher power take the wheel, things have gotten better each day.looking back,I dont regrete much that has happened in the past because it's made me into who I am today, and Today, I'm Thankful to be Me.

11-01-2009, 08:51 AM	#1 (permalink)
tim4960 Member Tournaments Won: 1 Join Date: Jun 2009 Location: torrington,ct Posts: 84	Thankful to be Me. Last night I went Trick or Treating with my two beautiful grandaughters, ages 1and 5, and even though it was raining a bit, we all had a great time.About half way threw the evening I was walking somewhat behind everybody just thinking how I really missed doing this with my 3 kids when they were little.The only difference between then and now is today I am clean and can truly enjoy these times. Don't get me wrong, we laughed and joked, but never without some kind of substance in my system.My oldest grand daughter noticed I was falling behind and walked back to me and said Hi grandpa, will you take me to the next house and took my hand. I am 49 yrs old and it takes a lot to even get me to think about crying, well I almost did. Call me a wimp,(lol) but once out of the mouth of babes, she almost got the tears.I looked down, smiled and said ABSOLUTLY... and off we went.I have to admit, it was one of the best nights i've had in a long time.As I woke up this morning,I opened the curtins and I stood there and just looked at how beautiful the world is.The leaves were all shades and there was a fall crispness in the air. You couldn't have asked for a more perfect November day, And as I closed my eyes I could almost smell the turkey roasting in the oven.It's still at times a little over whelming,I've been doing drugs since I was 10 years old and seemed to have woken up from a nightmare and placed into this utopia since I stopped useing. Please dont get me wrong, I dont live in a world with lollypop trees and bubblegum bushes, but since I stopped useing, opened my eyes and let my higher power take the wheel, things have gotten better each day.looking back,I dont regrete much that has happened in the past because it's made me into who I am today, and Today, I'm Thankful to be Me.