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ashleek · 11-01-2009, 06:47 AM

Hi there!

I am on busbar and lamictal (for moodswings/bipolar). I am on 15mg of busbar and it goes all the way to 30mg. The doctor says I should take it twice a day but I have to take a half of one four times a day to control the anxiety I have delt with my whole life and now worse that I am not drug induced.

The Lamictal helps me so much. I have been on Wellbutrin, Effexor and all the other psych meds just about and I feel the same way you do and I was thinking it is my addiction telling me I need more just because I always took more pills to get high, so the more the better. That was just my addict thinking.

Lamictal I am only on 100mg and before I took 200mg. So I sometimes feel I need more, maybe I do but I am better now but not as good as I want to be. See, with addiction I am also impatient and want everything right now. I am only40 days clean today. I want to rush everything sometimes, that's just how addicts are from my understanding. We want what we want when we want it.

I hope this was helpful, you can PM me if you would like.

11-01-2009, 06:47 AM	#6 (permalink)
ashleek FREAKING AWESOME! Join Date: Oct 2009 Location: Paris KY Posts: 253 Blog Entries: 1	Hi there! I am on busbar and lamictal (for moodswings/bipolar). I am on 15mg of busbar and it goes all the way to 30mg. The doctor says I should take it twice a day but I have to take a half of one four times a day to control the anxiety I have delt with my whole life and now worse that I am not drug induced. The Lamictal helps me so much. I have been on Wellbutrin, Effexor and all the other psych meds just about and I feel the same way you do and I was thinking it is my addiction telling me I need more just because I always took more pills to get high, so the more the better. That was just my addict thinking. Lamictal I am only on 100mg and before I took 200mg. So I sometimes feel I need more, maybe I do but I am better now but not as good as I want to be. See, with addiction I am also impatient and want everything right now. I am only40 days clean today. I want to rush everything sometimes, that's just how addicts are from my understanding. We want what we want when we want it. I hope this was helpful, you can PM me if you would like. __________________ I will not bow, I will not break, I will shed the world away, I will not fall, I will not fade, I will take your breath away ~ Breaking Benjamin You can stand under my Umbrella, ElLa, Ella, ELLa ~The beautiful Rihanna