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Mandjas · 10-27-2009, 03:18 PM

You know this is my 4th week with no contact with my mother and the rollercoaster in my head continues.

My husband and son have gone away for a few days, to join his sister on a short break (I couldn't go as I have no leave left this year). I find myself sitting here alone with my thoughts and I feel so very desperate. I keep bursting in to tears for no reason? I was so upbeat yesterday and nearly never went to Ala-non because I was feeling good. What a difference a day makes!

I feel so lonely and am having irrational thoughts of what would l do if my husband or son weren't around? Even panicing that something might happen to them while they are away. Why do I insist on punishing myself so much? I know these thoughts aren't healthy but I can't stop the chatter in my head.

10-27-2009, 03:18 PM	#1 (permalink)
Mandjas Member Join Date: Oct 2009 Location: Birmingham, England Posts: 58	Who was I kidding? Lonely, desperate and confused You know this is my 4th week with no contact with my mother and the rollercoaster in my head continues. My husband and son have gone away for a few days, to join his sister on a short break (I couldn't go as I have no leave left this year). I find myself sitting here alone with my thoughts and I feel so very desperate. I keep bursting in to tears for no reason? I was so upbeat yesterday and nearly never went to Ala-non because I was feeling good. What a difference a day makes! I feel so lonely and am having irrational thoughts of what would l do if my husband or son weren't around? Even panicing that something might happen to them while they are away. Why do I insist on punishing myself so much? I know these thoughts aren't healthy but I can't stop the chatter in my head.