Hey girly! I started a thread called "living with the enemy" I'm going through pretty much the same thing as you. My mom has been a raging alcoholic since I was a little girl not even ten yet. I see her sober or semi-sober 0-2 times a week max. Reading about the disease and realizing that she is just sick helps me to understand what's going on and not blame myself. Please do check out alanon and do not blame yourself for your mothers illness. You may need to learn to detach with love just to protect your own sanity. Feel free to PM me if you ever wanna chat or need some help
All the best.