[swampy]

Someone posted here about a year ago (longtime, i know) about them being sober and working a program for over 2 years and still feeling lonely, alone, and not finding a significant other in that amount of time.They were asking if recovery, did infact lead to loneliness, or make it that much harder to meet anyone? I can totally relate to this, as I had 18 months of sobriety and then blew it on getting together with an old girfriend who i know still used. Honestly, it was so much easier hooking up with people that are in those settings like bars, and whatnot. I am sorry, but it was so friggin hard to meet anyone when i was sober and at times, and it just sucked. I felt like an outcast because some people knew I did not drink. I know this all sounds like a pity party and some are going to say it's because I did not work a good enough program and i should have been content with myself. It's kind of ironic that the people that were telling me just this (sponsor and some fellow addicts in my na group) had significant others and were not in the same situation. basically, easier said then done. anyway, here i am back again 3 days sober now. In major pain and feeling utterly alone. Granted I have been married, have had girlfriends, 2 kids, so it's not like i am not capable of getting these things. Just seems alot harder. again, as I type this I see that I have some serious low self esteem issues and am not at all comfotable in my own skin, and just liking and existing with mysef. Boy, do i have alot of work... thanks for reading.