as long as i can remember my mom has been drunk!! there hasn't been a day in my 18 years of existance when my momma hasnt had a drink. im not perfect, and i like to dabble in drink AND substances myself. but i feel i am much more equipped to deal with this than my mom. my mom is the best person in the world, until around half four every night when she starts drinking. then she is cruel, and nasty, and miserable. she has been on anti depressants for years, and i really dont think the amount of alcohol she intakes helps her depression. everytime i talk to her about it, she just tells me how i am in no place to say as im not perfect myself. when i told one of my best friends what was going on at home he told me that she probably wont realise what shes doing until its too late and she falls victim to some horrible disease. i really blame myself for my moms drinking. when i ask her why she does it she often tells me that "bringing up a kid on her own wasnt easy" and "who wouldnt drink when they have to deal with you". i know im not the easiest of people to live with, but i wish my mom would recognize how much i love her and how much i miss her sober side. sorry to everyone for the soppy rant!
