I have an extremely active social life, I am very busy having lots of fun most of the time.. and a thought of drinking hasn't popped into my mind for a very long time.
I do remember when I was drinking, how small my world was too. I can't believe I lived that way for so long, fooled into thinking that I was actually having a good time, and that my drinking buddies were actually my friends. Makes me laugh now that I'm not being that foolish anymore.
I also obsessed about my 'ability' to drink just like you are now. Consumed a lot of my time. I'm glad it doesn't any more.. such a waste of my energy. I tried the 'only wine' and 'only beer' thing. When I would drink only wine, I would chug it, it went down faster and because I hated it, it still got me drunk without tasting most of it. Caused me worse blackouts and hangovers than I ever ever had from any other form of alcohol. Beer, well I thought I'd be too full too. Somehow I was able to fit enough to keep getting drunk, or at least drunk enough to think 'eh.. **** it.. lets do a shot'. No thanks!
Like Carol posted.. moderate drinking for men = 2 drinks per day. To me that would be absolutely pointless, because my point was to get intoxicated.
There is also a moderation management program, Google it. Course it's recommended that you be sober for 30 days to start with, and stick to MODERATE drinking amounts. Folks over there might have some advice for you as well.
Good luck with that, we'll be here when you're done
