[Wolfchild]

A few months ago, while looking up some people on Facebook, i came across someone i once had a very deep relationship with. We had dated and lived together for many years back in the 1980's. We were both actively using then and our love for each other was very real. Eventually though, our addictions took more of a priority in our lives then staying committed to each other and we parted ways. Our contact thru the years was very sporadic and we each had moved on into and thru other relationships. We never really expressed a desire to rekindle our passion and just let life take it's course. Since contacting her thru Facebook, we have brought each other up to date. She also is recovering and involved in the A.A. fellowship. She is now 18 months clean & sober and working thru the 12 Steps. She has a Home group, a sponsor, and is actively employed. i have let her know about my journey in the N.A. program & fellowship. We were able to make several amends to each other for the harm we had caused in the past. We have sent each other numerous emails since then and have spoken on the phone many times. We have made tentitive plans on a few occassions to get together, but other obligations have played a part in this not happening in our time. There are several other issues in her life that needed to be worked out for her own well being. i will not get into the details. Suffice it to say that she has recently decided to end a relationship with someone who has been actively using drugs.

My feelings about this woman are still strong and i would like to be open to the possibilty of us reawakening our desire for each others company. The amount of love i have for her seems to be realistic and within a proper context. i have inventoried the way this appears to be developing and have been honest with my sponsor (and others) about it. This lady meant a great deal to me and still does, but i do not want to act rashly or inappropiatly with it. i would like to have things progress in God's time and with His guidance. My heart and mind see the possibilties of our lives coming back together at this time. i realize that our lives could have run their course to enable us to be much more to each other than we ever could be before. We seem to have alot in common with each other and are committed to our individual programs of recovery.

My intent in posting this is to get some perspectives on it from my friends here at SR. And yes, i am totally aware of giving her the time & space to begin a healing process from this previous relationship she was involved in. i feel that it is necessary so that i do not become a substitute that could take her focus away from going thru what she needs to go thru at this time. If you would like to share your experiences with similiar situations and what you have learned from it, i would be most appreciative. If you would like to offer your insight on my life from what i have have shared here, i would be very grateful. If you would like to express you care and concerns, please feel free to do so. If you only have opinions on this matter or only want to judge this situation, please keep it moving. As many of you know, i have seldom shared the very intimate details of my personal life here. i have my reasons for that, but i believe that this is needful for me to share about this aspect of my life with you. Thank you all for your continued love and support in my(our) recovery.