[Lenore]

Like IWTH, I self-sabotage when life is running smoothly beacuse not walking on eggshells and fearing what the next day will bring is so alien to my experience of growing up in an alcoholic household. So now, when I'm in a job or a relationship that is chaos-free and healthy that I fall apart and run away from it.

I did manage to go to college and then to uni to get my degree but I think that's probably the only thing I've ever seen through to the end (I even left school at 14!). But even at the end of Uni, when I should have been studying for my exams I created chaos (it's still too painful to talk about how but I really messed up big time).