It's been a week now since I sent my 'detachment with love letter' to my mom and I haven't heard a thing.
I spoke to my dad and he said be prepared that she may never speak to me again! And I know that's true because she didn't speak to my older brother for 10 years.
I must have been kidding myself last week when I said I was prepared for her response, I guess I'm not. How can she really choose alcohol over her own daughter and grandson, how could she be that cold? Why can't I just get on with it and think to myself well stuff her then?
I didn't want the confrontation, that's why I sent a letter, now I'm thinking I should have talked to her and not written to her - she must think I am cold too.
I'm nearly 40 and after all these years I still need to feel wanted and loved by her.
My mind is slipping......
