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Originally Posted by LiveLikeGold6  Anyone else have it somewhat figured out? I'm learning that I have a hell of a lot of work to do ugh... Everytime I'm on my way to something good I back out. Almost done with college drop out and change majors, have a nice job on my way to getting raise, quit my job! Wtf? Over and over I do **** like this. |
I dunno LiveLikeGold6 - but this is another theme that I've seen repeat itself on this board again and again (and I've only been a member for two months).
For me it is not the achieving success that has been the problem but maintaining stable success for the long term. I have two degrees, I have worked full-time, part-time and been self-employed. I have self-sabotaged each and everyone of my jobs / careers. It is almost like when things are going smoothly and well that does not "feel" right so I self-sabotage creating adrenaline pumping chaos, uncertainty, fear and unhappiness - these feelings, I am familiar with, I know them, these are what I became conditioned to as being normal as a child.
So now I have become more self-aware, I am working at living at a calmer, slower pace. Sometimes I find it boring but I resist the urge to inject chaos into my own life and the feeling passes - it certainly is an easier way to live my life.
IWTHxxx