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Originally Posted by chrisinaustin  Tina, I might have missed it, but one of the things Carol touched on is it was lifted when she had worked through the steps. Have you worked them through?
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Well Chris, it's funny you should ask... because as I said i was going to, I went to a meeting tonight.... Nobody really brought up a topic so the moderator said let's put step 1 out there on the table and discuss that. great discussions...
So as we were discussing Step 1, I kept looking at the wall and trying to see where I am.
Step 1 - I absolutely admit that I am powerless over alcohol. That is why I choose daily not to drink.
AND THAT'S WHERE I END. RIGHT THERE. For a year and 5 months that's where I have stayed. White Knuckling it. (thanks to whoever brought that up, because i have thought about that ever since you said it. and yes I white-knuckle it every day.)
Step 2 - Came to believe that a Power greater than ourselves can restore us to sanity:
Do I believe in a Power greater then myself? Yes. The God of my understanding is the Lord and Leader of my life.
Do I believe He can restore me to sanity? Depends on what the word "Sanity" means. Right now I can't ever imagine not wanting to drink. I weep about it all the time.
So maybe I should move this post over to the 12 Step Support section and ask What does Sanity mean to all of you... and how do I get beyond this step.
So I think I'm moving from "still struggling" to "taking steps".