[laurie6781]

I too was like you for a long time in recovery.

What it took me so long to grasp is that I was LIVING LIFE on LIFE'S TERMS and that meant that there would be 'up' times, and there would be 'down' times and my job was to get through it all without picking up and using again.

One more "Acceptance" I had to learn. To accept life as it was, that I would have bad days or even weeks, and that if I did not have them now and again, how in the heck was I going to know when I was having good days or even weeks. <vbg>

When that 'acceptance' finally came, remaking my 'Gratitude List' started to work wonders on me. Not only did it show me how far I had come, it gave me hope that there were great things in store for the future.

And you know what?

There were and still are.

My life has been so much greater and better than I could ever have dreamed!

So hang in there. Life sober and clean is an adventure and we never know what 'curve ball' is coming at us and what 'tools' we will use to get through it and beyone to greater things.

J M H O

Please keep posting and let us know how you are doing as we do care very much.

Love and hugs,