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Learn2Live · 10-20-2009, 07:25 PM

The alcoholic, crack-addicted person who left my home at the end of January, and who I have been trying to get out of my life since May, has continuously called me at least every 2 weeks since he left. I blocked my phone from ringing when he calls, and I stopped talking to him completely about a month ago.

Today is my 42nd birthday and I was happy ALL day, just overjoyed to be alive and to have a good job and my family and friends at work to joke around with. I was upbeat, singing, just plain happy. Then I notice someone has called (he's on call-block but able to leave messages). I listened to the VM. He left a message that he was thinking of me and hopes one day I will call him back.

So, I did. I left a VM telling him that I do not want him to call me any longer, and not to come to my house. That if he does so again, I will get a restraining order against him.

Someone please tell me, Why don't I feel any relief? What do I feel so scared inside after doing that? Why do I feel like crying?

10-20-2009, 07:25 PM	#1 (permalink)
Learn2Live To thine own self be true. Join Date: May 2009 Location: U.S.A. Posts: 4,024 Blog Entries: 5	So Why Am I Scared? The alcoholic, crack-addicted person who left my home at the end of January, and who I have been trying to get out of my life since May, has continuously called me at least every 2 weeks since he left. I blocked my phone from ringing when he calls, and I stopped talking to him completely about a month ago. Today is my 42nd birthday and I was happy ALL day, just overjoyed to be alive and to have a good job and my family and friends at work to joke around with. I was upbeat, singing, just plain happy. Then I notice someone has called (he's on call-block but able to leave messages). I listened to the VM. He left a message that he was thinking of me and hopes one day I will call him back. So, I did. I left a VM telling him that I do not want him to call me any longer, and not to come to my house. That if he does so again, I will get a restraining order against him. Someone please tell me, Why don't I feel any relief? What do I feel so scared inside after doing that? Why do I feel like crying? __________________ God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference. Peace out.