Thanks I def think myself it is tha same thing with me just not being able to live life for what it is on life's terms u hit the nail right on the spot there and yeh noone in my family can relate it is like when I am sober for a while last time it was 10 mths before I recently relapsed all was really ok or wasn'it??? And I just failed to make myself be aware of the warning signs because I know that they exist maybe my subconciously chooses to surpress them I do not know. Thanks for ur advice I am feeling better now after ranting on before and then watching a DVd with my partner called "I love u man" it helped those feelings pass
