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Thanks, Wanting. That helps. "Loyal to a fault" is a phrase that has been applied to me, more than once, I'm sorry to say! I also agree that God is doing me a favor--because of my faith, I shudder to think what would have had to happen for me to leave. No contact is difficult, as we still live in the same house (He has left me, but won't leave!). He is an atty, and started to leave, but stopped himself saying that "It's my house, too" so he sleeps in the basement (when he comes home), I go upstairs and, unfortunately our 23-year-old college graduate son (2nd oldest of 4) is living here too while the job search continues (he has a promising interview Oct 31, fingers crossed so he can get out of here). Also difficult no contact because I work in his law office LOL. But this is the first time I've answered an email in that way, and agree that I shouldn't answer at all.
This hurt is just so raw. We worked so hard to build this family and he can pull it apart so easily...and trashing me to 2 of the kids.
It is so difficult to not fight back but just to trust...trust God, trust my kids and just be Mom, trusting that they see or will see what's going on.
Does the hurt at least fade?:praying
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